七月·安生
好吧，取这个名字纯粹是因为有“七月”这个字。每年的7月似乎都是最难熬的一个月。很多负面的想法都会选择在这个时候出现。hmm...I have been thought about the questions about lives and death after grandma passed away. And this is the reason that brought me away from GOD. I feel like I don't believe in this God anymore. Why He wanted to select who will be saved and who will not? Why I was born in a non-Christian family? Why do we need to be separated after death? I and doubting, and yet I have no answers to my questions. End of week 4 of my internship. Boring...Boring....and BORING!!! That's why I have the time to write my blog. Seeing other coursemates have a lot of works and learning, but I have none. This makes me so scared that I may fail my IT, but there's nothing I can do but to accept it at all. Maybe trying to negotiate for a PPM next week though.
Thinking about where should I go and what should I do after my graduation. I hope to stay local with parents, not need to plan for too many things, but I don't know what I want to do. Plan to be a secondary teacher, but teachers told me not to become a teacher, haha, quite a bit 矛盾. Maybe working in the government hospital is a good choice? By the way, many teachers ask me why I haven't had a boyfriend. I want to clarify that not my 眼光 too high, but because nobody wants to "buy" me, haha...Hope to find a mate soon, is too old for the age of 23 years old.
Results released, quite disappointed although all passed. Sometimes I am wondering that why the more hardworking I am for the semester, the more disappointed after receiving my results? Scared that no lectures will choose me for the FYP...
I had accepted to come back to Peter cell group to become the leader. But I know that I am not ready yet, due to my faith in GOD. It is in the down of my spiritual life. Let God and times heal me. It will be a hard time for me next semester till next year...FYP, CM, MYF, CGL, church........this gonna dry me out!!! Hope that can overcome it all with GOD!
Thinking about where should I go and what should I do after my graduation. I hope to stay local with parents, not need to plan for too many things, but I don't know what I want to do. Plan to be a secondary teacher, but teachers told me not to become a teacher, haha, quite a bit 矛盾. Maybe working in the government hospital is a good choice? By the way, many teachers ask me why I haven't had a boyfriend. I want to clarify that not my 眼光 too high, but because nobody wants to "buy" me, haha...Hope to find a mate soon, is too old for the age of 23 years old.
Results released, quite disappointed although all passed. Sometimes I am wondering that why the more hardworking I am for the semester, the more disappointed after receiving my results? Scared that no lectures will choose me for the FYP...
I had accepted to come back to Peter cell group to become the leader. But I know that I am not ready yet, due to my faith in GOD. It is in the down of my spiritual life. Let God and times heal me. It will be a hard time for me next semester till next year...FYP, CM, MYF, CGL, church........this gonna dry me out!!! Hope that can overcome it all with GOD!
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